should i stay or should i go?

best sentence every right now: "i am appalled by the audacity of his actions"

after thought....that statement could apply on so many levels!

but i thought that the usage of all those a's was cool.

let's see since marc left things seem to be settling down. thankfully.

europe is getting closer.

still too much to do. wishing i could just come back to portland after europe. i have been doing so much networking this summer. and i have met the family that i would LOVE to be a nanny for. i love their kids. and i love them. they are what i want for myself. i just see myself as this woman and her life.

i had a good weekend. starting to date someone new. and its different from how i have been since sean and i broke up. i am not trying to rush anything. though my time is slowly going down before i leave. its still nice because i just haven't not rushed the dating thing since sean. though i have dated alot after sean..i just always seemed to rush it. to get to a certain point. and that wasn't good. so i think this is a good change for me.

had dinner with bri, alisha, jess, adam, marko, and liz tonight. it was nice. it was for bri's birthday.

i got my backpack for traveling too!

though today was a really nice day. it seems to be ending on a bittersweet note. i am sure its no big deal just frustrating. i think any form of rejection sucks. overall.

anyways...work tomorrow...and i think i am seeing kate tomorrow! rock!

my mom and i were talking today. she told me if i didn't want to go back to uconn i didn't have to. and as nice as that is of her, and i am not going to say i didn't think about just taking classes at psu for this semester for a second. but i think i need to go back. even if only for one more semester. then either i will transfer for spring somewhere else. or i will go to london then go somewhere else. we shall see.

occupation choices as of now:
~sex therapist
~art history or teaching something like that
~something with children...therapy or otherwise.


my life plan i have started to think would be...nanny for a pretty well off jewish family. have them introduce me to some of their equally well to do friends of the family..ie a cute jewish boy that i can get married to. have kids and probably end up teaching or having a day care. something with the career i graduated in. i guess....this of course is a joke plan but...meh.

i think i should be an au pair next summer. travel with a family or something. okay i need to shower too...damn i am tired.